Wednesday, January 2, 2008

relationships

i'm not the kind of guy who wants to "hook up" with a guy.
i don't want to have a guy around only for the sex.
just because i'm gay, doesn't mean
all i want is a guy to have sex with.

what i want is a relationship.

i want to be happy.
i want to be with someone that i enjoy being around-
someone who makes me feel special, someone who makes me smile,
someone who makes me laugh.

i want somebody who i can be myself around-my sillyness, corniness,
randomness, and all.
i want someone to curl up next to and watch movies with late at night,
someone to hug and kiss every time i see him, someone to think about all the time.
does he exist?
where do i find him?

ha...i'm such a hopeless romantic.

heart in the sand

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hey Mr X, it exists! We are meant to love regardless of out sexuality. My heart knows no sex, it just feels the happiness of being with someone that shares the same interest, and desires. For Example: I love being in a crowed room and looking across the crowd and being able to know what my partner is thinking by simpling winking, or smiling, or just changing your expression. The feeling of having someone that is with you at all times is great, yes there are difficult times sometimes but for the most part it is great. My boyfriend and I are not big on public affection, for various reasons, even though we both are out and our families are aware of our relationship we still feel that we need to keep it to appropriate places. My point with that is, I am a very affectionate person and sometimes I get the urge to want to hug him and kiss him, but I wait till the right time, one of the best things he does is when we are out in public and he gives me the secret brush with his hands my body just tingles with his touch. I think sometimes people feel that we should be more open in public, but we I feel that the little games that we play make it more fun sometimes. In our alone time it is great just to have him lay on me while I am watching a football game and he is taking a nap, or while we just cuddle on cold nights and have pillow talk. Hang in there you will find that someone who will make your skin tingle! Keep an open mind and you are right there is more to this then sex.
Mr Smith

B said...

Great post, could not agree more.

Mr. X said...

thanks for such a great comment mr.smith!
yeah, i think i feel the same way about public affection too.

Aek said...

In so many ways, I'm a hopeless romantic too. Sigh, the heart swoons.

Anonymous said...

hey mr.x. i simply landed up on ur blog by chance. since i have never had any gay frnds i havent ever known wat exactly it is to face the world full of prejudice when it comes to homosexuality. i myself am heterosexual, have a boyfrnd who i am hopelessly in love with and hope u find someone great soon enuf too. i have to admit this, your blog made me really think how difficult it must be for you to put up a pretense, i hadnt really ever given it a thot before. i cant even begin to imagine how frustrating it must get for you. i hope you will live a life that you dream of very soon. wishing you the very best in life.